A new turning point...wen gradient becomes 0...can say de result of my 2nd derievative of x is a positive number, cos i hit a new low(is it lame? haha)  ...This past few days keep thinking  abt how MUCH i have missed after browsing tru frenster and left with a very big big 
"what if''.  Painful and sad feeling surging
looking at other ppl's memories...dats reli pathetic of me but i just cant help it...The more wad is put in de past, de more painful it gets realising the distance between here and wad was used to be...all my emotions and encounters shape me for what i am 2day, i cant say i'm greatful for em, but i accept it, to fuse with it and grow.......Feeling of ''sienness'' felt better after chatting abt it wif cecilia n isa, abt sacrafices...choices n fate. Fate...its smtng dat definately can be believed in, haha.

>>In de end, sis turned down job offer at miri, no home alone diaries for me...hehe...it sounded kinda like a gud idea for blog material...transport problem all solved.