End of 2010

The year of 2010 is an epic year of my life.  With it, events that define my life;  complete with joy, sadness, and disappointment with a hint of "cheap" success.  2010, 2009...  when will I get an overall good year? *sigh*

Looking back at 2010, I can hardly remember what happened before I went to NUS.  Its like all the memory space has been taken up by a new environment and massive amounts of data input in a short period of time.

I still remember the trip back in January...

We had lots of fun, and I went shopping crazy.  It all seems so far away, all that is left are these memories...
We're not even that close anymore...


Then there was the CNY.

It was a pretty great celebration, because everyone in the family came back, even my brother did, because he no longer had to stay in India.  Did tons of visiting too, with both family and friends.  I will always remember gambling with beer at Mich's house, about how I made everyone drink and avoided drinking twice in a row!

 I seriously wanted to get a proper job, but I didn't, was it because I couldn't?   Just one of the failures of my life.  You'll see more of that later on.

Who could forget the STPM results day?

the reporter emailed it to me.

It was a happy day, my happy day.  Sadly tho, it did not reap much results for me.


With that came all the University applications and scholarship applications.  I managed to get into all the Universities that I want, even those that I don't, but not the scholarships...  Its like no matter how good I do, I'll never be good enough.  Just one of the failures of my life.  I think its unhealthy to dwell on failures huh?

Scholarship interviews brought me to KL and Miri.

This hostel does not know comfort but has the best locality ever

One of the best hotels I've been in.

Miri

The second Marriot in the same week.

Make no mistake that the interviews were valuable experiences and I met some nice people along with it too, even one person that surprised me, for the better.  I just hoped the outcome was in my favour.  I will ALWAYS think about how it would be like if I had gotten the scholarship and went to Manchester instead. 

I did partake in PC Fair!  I wanted to do it, and I got to do it.

Once again, another good experience.  I discovered that I can do direct sales, but in my opinion, its all about the product, which a lot of people will disagree with me. 

July came around, and it was time for me to go forth onto my next stage in life, varsity.  Cloudy, unsure, undetermined of what lies ahead, I went for it.

Its sad that I couldn't get hall accommodation, I'm pretty sure I messed up the application.  I could have gotten into KR...  You know, I would be a valuable addition to any team, of course I'm not talented or anything, but hey, spit and shine?  desperate?

NUS will be NUS, fast-paced and full of imba people.  I'm glad I'm surrounded by such, but its hard to keep up sometimes.  I know I have to work harder, focus is hard to come by these days... do I have ADD?  For everything you gain, there is a price of equivalent value.  That fact will never change...  I though varsity is the time to do whatever you want?

Singapore on the other hand is great, except for the small space and hawker food.  I do love shopping.  Vivocity is my favourite spot.

I really lost weight...

December holidays weren't really what I expected.  I have actually made a list of the things to do and aims.  I wanted to play tennis, but in the end not even once, brought my racket back for no reason.

I had my results for the first semester.  I want to do better, get into the dean's list because I've never done it before.  I need those CAP puller subjects.

Realising that my holidays are almost over, I have somehow sunk into depression.  This surprised me, I thought I would be glad to go back, ready and all enthusiastic, but I guess I've gotten used to the easy, do nothing life that I have here.  Don't I like studying in NUS?  Hopefully the new semester will be better than the last.

This is definitely a year to be remembered, for better and worse, through sickness and in health? lol...

Since the new year is coming, I guess its appropriate to post up new year resolutions.  I'll think about it, but will keep those I have not achieved too.

Happy New Year to all.

This is a Christmas Eve

As in the title, we have arrived at Christmas Eve night  of 2010.  Looking back a year before this day, things unimaginable happened, but then, who has the gift of foresight?

For the past 2 years, I have been asking for a Nissan Fairlady from Santa.  I guess I've been a really bad boy. No argument about that though.

This year I won't ask for anything, because I feel like I have everything I can have, those I can't have... it can't be helped...

Christmas huh?  Actually I took a hell lot of pictures of Christmas trees in Singapore, and also the Santa who traded his sled and reindeers for a unicorn.  

Bugis

Orchard road

 Should I buy this shirt??

This is something I bought for myself on Christmas Eve.  Ignore the legs.

I have too many pictures to share here, so I'm just gonna have to end this here.

Merry Christmas to everyone!  :D

Period

Well, not the gender-specific type but more of a measurement of time.  Period, it is what I call the extent of time that I'm having now, back at home.

So I have been back for almost two weeks now.  Lets recall how I got back!  (No relevance)  Lets see, that day started with an early early wake up and light packing.  I left with a HUGE and FREAKIN HEAVY black duffel bag, my new messenger bag and also Caldwell.  If you don't know what is Caldwell... you can google high sierra + caldwell  and you'll find him.  hehe...  The moment I stepped out, I regretted it, you can say I bit off more than I can chew, but its actually just because I brought too much stuff back here!  With a laptop bag that weighs almost 2kg on my shoulders, a messenger bag that weighs around 1kg  and then a duffel bag that weights 12kg, I really really had my hands full.  I swear I will NEVER bring that many stuff back again.  You know what, I didn't even need to bring any clothes back at all, except the ones that I don't want to wear in Singapore again.  You know, when I got back and I opened my wardrobe, I was shocked!  I never remembered that it was so damn full!  I really forgot that I had THAT many clothes... and I had to shove the ones that I brought back into it, guilty.  regret!

 

You know... I think it's because of that huge black duffel bag that the cops at the MRT station though I was a bomber?  It wasn't really embarrasing, and I really iced them well for doing that... wakakakaka....  I got checked twice!  Once at the MRT station and once after reaching Kuching.

This is actually my first time ever departing from Changi Airport, so naturally I'd go around exploring the place, noobishly and looking for the ridiculously discounted Crocs.  Well, I did find them but they were still too expensive for shoes that I had in mind.  I gotta say, Terminal 3 is nice, I guess mostly cos its new and I like the interior design.  There's really not much to see except "scenery" but the nice things are hidden behind the departure gates.  I missed the chance to explore the departure hall which had A HELL LOT TO OFFER, arcades, rooms and a gym!  They even had exhibits going on that I got a glimpse of as I ran to my departure gate.  Well, I had to run because I spent too much time at the Golden Lounge which was situated on the second floor overlooking the koi pond.  Yeah, they have multiple levels in the departure hall and also a koi pond!  

Flight was normal.  I almost barfed after the in-flight meal cos I was too full, just ate too much.  Can you believe that the meal that I had going back was identical to the one I had going to Singapore?  

After I landed, I went out and I saw my mom's car.  I waved at it, jumped up and down in an effort to catch my mom's attention to no avail.  I sighed, picked up my bags and walked to the car which was parked almost 30 meters away?  Only when I reached the car did she see me.  Should I be disappointed that my own mother didn't recognise me?  I feel....indifferent.  I guess I somehow saw that coming.  Well, I didn't really look like myself then too.  hehe...

Reaching home, I was quite surprised by how old it looked and my room,  I wasn't used to the room door being so light because my dorm room door was heavy!  So I kept using redundantly excessive force to open the door and it doesn't lock the same way too!  Surprised by the involuntary actions of my daily PGP life.  I wasn't used to this old bed of mine too.  I remembered that I slept very well on my first night at PGP. Wifi at home sucks too... even with the 2MPBS line.  The signal just keeps breaking! I can't stream video properly with a signal like that.  I thought its because settings with my Vista was at fault, so I did a reformat and changed up to Windows 7, but the problem is still there!  Well, since upgrading to Windows 7 was on my list already, so I can't say I did the reformat for nothing, even though I really want to, because it caused me so much trouble!

I have a list of things that I need to do before going back and another list of things to eat before going back.  So far I played badminton twice only!  Stuff on the list is almost done, but the food section however has only barely been broken into...  will need to work on that.

I should live this holiday to the fullest!

Before I Head Home

This will be the final post before I head home for the first time since...July!  Time really passed by unnoticed, well it went by really fast because everything here is really fast-paced, which I think I explained some time ago.  Unsettling fact.

My first semester results is coming out on the 21st December.  God have mercy on us all, LOL.

Yes peeps, I will be back in Kuching by Saturday.  I hope it will be a good holiday, spent with family and friends, making decent and indecent memories, haha! Badminton...eating out...beach...karaoke!  booze?

Packing, once again has been a pain.  I am very surprised at all the stuff I have here.  For a person that has one room, I have stuff to fit two, and I have also come to realise that I don't really have THAT many clothes here...  which could potentially lead to another shopping-disaster-monster-on-the-loose situation.  Frankly speaking, I don't really mind but have to consider the choking, entangling financial chain and leash, which I haven't been doing enough lately... what am I talking about? 

 Let me show you a picture.

I think I own the most expensive bag in my household, which also consists of two working-class females.  I am committing sin smiling helplessly while shaking my head at myself.  Issues.  There is no question that I love this bag.

Did I really lose weight all this while?  People keep telling me I lost weight.  I suspect its cause of the long long messy messy hair I'm "brewing" right now.  Actually, it is a confirmed fact.  I managed to finally get the opportunity to weigh myself when I went to the clinic last week.  Surprisingly so, I lose quite a few kilos.  You be the judge.

After

Before

Ignore the difference in hairstyle, are these the same person?!  You know, it has always been weird for me to look at pictures of myself, like a stranger or something...but lets not open that door now...

Gonna head off to the airport early, because I wanna take a good look around the airport, maybe I can find crocs at 70% off cause I always see them on sale at Terminal 3 in the newspapers.  What else is at the infamous Changi Airport?

I think I am ready to go home, will I miss this place?  Well I am kinda used to living here, though it needs hell lots of improvement without a question...  I hardly get excited anymore, except when I visit a new place, but its always nice to head home. 

So I will be going home.

treading through a familiar path, he stretches his fingers and so it begins again..


Back Again!

Sorry for being on hiatus for so long.  I was busy dealing with other stuff that I ignored this space of mine.  For now, I haven't blogged for so long that I even forgot how to write one again, haha!

Well, just so you know, I just finished my FIRST ever university exam.  No "yay" for that though.  To tell you the truth, it went terribly.  I'm not sure if this is just the way how this school rolls, but the exams are freaking hard! I could not finish the papers, the questions were too hard and there was not enough time.  Is it a weak excuse that I got a little sick?  I have serious issues with university life, not sure how I should live it.  I don't understand what do they want the students to get out of this type of education?  Amidst all the knowledge stuffing try to absorb as much as you can?  Is it the common situation here to get 60 over marks and still get a good grade?  Is that really a good thing?  All I can do now is wait for the results to come out on the 21st next month.  Yes, I can actually remember the date.

What now?  I really don't know.  Currently taking a break from catching up with my beloved TV series(plural, is there a plural word for series?) because my ears feels like on fire if the muffs go on for too long.  Right now, watching drama is kinda boring and I'm left with almost nothing to do.  Well, I do wanna do some serious shopping!  Hoping to hit Orchard and Suntec area very soon, but I don't really want to do it alone. =(   .  I did buy a packet of jelly powder, and if you're wondering why on Earth did I do that, I'm gonna make jelly.  What a weird thing for a guy to do in his hostel kitchen after the exams.  I don't really know what to do.  Should I study??  Take up online gaming again?!  One thing's for sure, I'm gonna hit the practice court as much as I can, until I'm good enough to play with another human being, haha.

So I bought a new phone.  Its orange.  Its from Nokia.  I kinda like it.  Do I regret getting it?  A little bit...

I will be back in Kuching on the 4th of December!  I will be bored nonetheless because I will have nothing to do and there's no tennis on TV while I wait for my friends to be back.  Looking forward to karaoke sessions and dinners and fun talks, catching up in general.  I haven't seen them in a long while. 


Can you believe it?  I ran out of things to say already!

Okay, I'll post what I look like nowadays, hahahaha....  don't worry, I don't wear that hair everyday.

Trivial

Oh cool, this is actually post number 140. If you count by the number of years since I started blogging and the number of posts so far.... I don't think I'm an active blogger...

This week went quite well, played my tennis, kinda loving the game, I think I made improvements, mid-term results came back... not too shabby...started weekend tasks on Friday instead of Saturday or Sunday (due to drive and determination of shopping on Saturday.. LOL), and that's just about it for the good things that happened this week, short?

This urge to blog today is actually an urge to nag and bitch about the "trivial" problems that I'm facing/faced.  I don't even know where should I start!  Well, lets talk about how I failed change accommodations, sickening housing people, if two people want to do a mutual swap, what is the reason for rejection??  Further adding to the count of failures in my uni record, =.=''  .  That seems to be the case, my uni life is PAVED with failures...  maybe cause I only choose to see the failures?  I think I covered some of the success stories last post.  I want hall leh... I need CCAs...

Then there's the programming.  URRGGHH~!  If only I had more time/ If only I didn't spend so much time on Task 1! Its not that I don't know how to do the question, I just needed more time.

Then there's the LAUNDRY ISSUE.  What the fuck man... the dryer used to run for 40 minutes for $1 and they fuckin dialed it back to 30 minutes!  What the frack?!  There's no rise in electric rates, reduce the duration for what??  Get this, 10cents for 3minutes of dryer usage.  Again, What the frack!!!  Its already unacceptable because they charge us with washing machine usage while all the other residences don't have to pay for it!  Its not like our hostel fees are cheaper, are they just unfair?  Is it because this is the largest population on campus, so they charge so that we wont use it too extensively?  Provide more for us then!  This week when I was doing laundry, my coin box fell and one 20cent coin fell under the washing machine.. emo..>.>  Then today after I paid for my dinner, a 10cent coin fell under the food stall and I couldn't find it... emo some more...

Then today I lost my wooden spoon!  Its just not there anymore... did I accidentally throw it away? I'm currently suspecting one of my clustermates...  did someone steal it?? Its just a wooden spoon, why steal a wooden spoon... =.=   I miss my wooden spoon...I use it almost everyday and now its gone... the littlest things get me down... how am I gonna eat cereal from now on?  What am I gonna use to stir stuff?  Metal rubbing against metal is so not cool... so I want my wooden spoon back! *sob sob...*

Then ever since I saw people using dampeners on Monday, I want one.  On Thursday or yesterday, I just can't stop thinking about changing racquets and getting dampeners!  I'm gonna go haywire~!  Babolat, my yellow racquet reminds me of Nadal whom I'm NOT really a fan...  so I wanna get a Wilson racquet, which means I should sell my Babolat, just so that I can get a new one. Am I crazy??  Oh, the infatuation...  Have you ever realised that on the ATP tour or even the WTA tour, not a single one of them using a Babolat uses the single-handed backhand.  I suspect that their racquets are not suitable for single-handed.  For me, I choose to use the single-handed, but sometimes, I don't know why but I just use the two-handed because I feel like it?  Instinct?  I like my single-handed better though...  So I want a Wilson racquet! but not before I can sell off my Babolat.  Oh the Infatuation!  Its like I'm in an infinite loop.  =.=  Oh dear...   Then there's the issue of a dampener, I saw Babolat one for 10bucks, but I'm not sure if I should commit to Babolat since I wanna change...so I kinda decided to only get one when I change racket.  However I seriously don't like that decision!  Really curious what it feels like with dampener on...

Sien, stuff I wanna buy I don't have it, stuff I bought I don't like.  See a pattern? A deadly deadly pattern....  Something wrong with me?  A need to sort out myself?  Well, not all, but definitely some mistakes...just today I bought a white FBT shirt because red just doesn't go with my bright yellow green nike shirt!  The size was wrong.  Hence, confined to indoors... *sigh~*

Is this a series of unfortunate events? I would hope things would turn for the better, but what would that mean?  I shall get everything that I want! muahahahaha!  Dear, that's not how the world works... not mine anyway.  So screwed... so emo... so many things on my mind...

Unresolved!

So far...

Life in NUS can't be summed up to a few words, some call it the National University of Stress, other might just call it the National University of Staircases...

You can say that it is hectic for some and slack for others too, but one thing is for sure, that education here is  just fast-pace!  While you barely have time to sink in some of the new stuff, there are more new stuff coming at you!  I guess that's uni life for ye?

So far... I don't think that my quest to make my uni-life as fruitful as possible is working... or am I just rushing things?  Its just my first semester and all... but it's not like I didn't put myself out there...at least I tried, >.> and now half of the first semester is over...  if you ask me if I've grown or accomplished anything, I don't think I'd be able to give you a straight answer honestly, well... I almost never give straight answers, haha...  Well, so far I did start to play tennis and I got 13 people to get the same printer (power of networking) so that we can bulk-price...  I think programming is a good one, but I see no practical use of it so far, what about DJ-ing on campus radio?  I'll just leave it at that, =P

CCAs!  Troublesome...Singapore is so small that we need to fight for on-campus accommodation, and its pretty expensive too...but it would still be cheaper than to rent a room outside... Oh~, how I wish to own a condo on Pasir Panjang...LOL.  I could decorate it with stuff that I will have reason to buy from Daiso and get more groceries from FairPrice!  Ok, I admit, I'm damn auntie...  The officials actually created this system to make sure us students aren't just word-sucking bookworms, but actually active all-rounders that will fit into the extremely competitive jungle out there, but as I read somewhere on the web, the system actually kinda backfired because students don't do CCAs out of interest anymore, just to get points.  I mean, look at me, I joined the freakin Communications and New Media Society, wtf...  what can I do?  The SME don't want me. So far I only have 1, I want more, I need more, why don't they just come to me, daydreamin...=.=   

Guess what, I'm having my semester break when everyone else is starting school!  =P

I have so many things planned... I want go shopping leh... but don't really wanna do it alone, but I'll pity the poor things that go shopping with me... LOL.  There's also another Johor day trip planned, that's right...ANOTHER ONE... Just another troublesome matter.  Shopping... I need a pair of slippers cause the one I brought with me is failing, and the unwanted ones in my cluster has no traction!  I'm looking for a pair of sky blue shorts, hahaha... and also a new messenger bag!  No hurry tho...  actually I browsed through Timbuk2 and the price is $165...@@  but I want~   I'm also very very tempted to buy a pair of canvas shoes, just because I see a lot of people wearing them... me is with problems...hehehe... I'm so easily influenced...

Another big part of sem break, STUDY! because I have mid terms after the break...typical...

Lastly, I have decided on a new personal policy.  Well, if you know me well enough, you should know that I have some personal policies, like I treat everyone equally regardless of sex (so I pinch both guys and girls), and I try very hard not to waste food, and "tegur" when people around me do it... , keep moving on... and I have a new one, which is always be gracious with time.  I will always be gracious with time, because the more I think about it, the more it feels right to live like that.  Part of the reason of its commencement is just people, if you want my time, I will spare it if I have it, and I expect it from people that I consider.

So that's it for now... and I have no idea when will the next post come out... hehe...

LATE Update

 This update is late as in long overdue/done at the witching hour  

*pictures unavailable*


So I moved onto campus, and because I have been here for almost 2 weeks now, I am kind of settling in.  I have no trouble sleeping in my hostel room, but I would like MORE cooperation with my clustermates and BIGGER shower cubicles!!

There were quite a few activities this week, last week was pretty boring for me except for the weekends.

Target is to live a vibrant uni life, cause no employer is gonna focus on your academics you know... definitely gonna learn new things, DO different things and go for AWESOME!

I think I can say I found new friends, MSL really is helpful, wish I participated in their activities sooner, seriously. 

So as most of you might know, my phone spoiled again...  after 4 years of service I guess its demanding retirement...  The timing is REALLY REALLY off as the phone that I am currently aiming for is not released yet, though set to be released in the UK late this month.  NOKIA N8!  I summon thee~!  ==''  (from the mind of the desperate and tired)

Financial situation?  The stuff here against contrary belief is not expensive, or as the Singaporeans call it, not X.  However, as my financial situation is uber vague, I'm hesitant all the time.  Seriously, the things here are affordable if you earn her currency, that is...

I'm sorry to say this but that's it for now.  Sleepy...

How've ye been?

So I've been here for a week now.  Honestly, it feels like a month has passed.  Not much has been done, not much can be done... other than gradually increasing my luggage weight, I went to my new school for a few times... took the QET... two orientations, or disorientation in my opinion, they just made us even more confused than we were.  Although my luggage was UBER heavy, I still failed to bring "all" the things that would be needed, but I guess some things were meant to be bought here. 

This place is known to be a shopping haven, for me not much shopping has been done tho, just a couple of little things that I would need at the hostel.  There's even a sale going on...but I have no need for new clothes nor the place to put them...T.T  If I go shopping crazy now, what about the four more years to come?  I might end up in a mental institution, that I found to be on sale at the time. haha!  Sale... evil little word... wallet murderer...

I did buy a pair of Brooks, which is made for running/jogging but I plan to use it for everything.  Actually I wanted to look for shoes from Dunlop or Diodora but just can't seem to find those brands here... all Nike, Adidas, Puma, Asics and New Balance.  OMG... Asics shoes are so damn expensive!! @@  Are they really that good?  I'm gonna try after this one spoils...

Transport system is rather great here.  Its like you can go everywhere from anywhere, just that it could take hours.  Famous public transport sound, "teet" and your money is gone.  It's so easy, its so addictive that before you know it,you're running low on credit. 

You know, I'm not sure if its the bakery that I went to or is it a culture here, that the cashiers don't say thank you after you paid them.  Well, it could also bet that I was too sensitive and its a trend everywhere? but not in Canada, Canadians are supposed to be nice, haha!

These days... nothing to do.  I don't even know where to go, yet.  Timing incorrect.

How Do I Feel?

Well what can I say, this is it.  I've been yearning for 2 or 3 years, but what I got in return is not really what I would prefer....  My life, my choices, my decisions, hence my consequences as well.  It has been some ride, but I pretty sure I grew out of it, thus adopting a pretty suitable motto.  Besides, what else can you do but Keep Moving Forward~!

Kuching has been a decent host to me, for almost 20 years!  This is my hometown, where I planted my roots, forever my beloved place.  I met some pretty awesome people here, great memories... some terrbile ones... well that's life for ye! hehehe...

Some people ask me, aren't you excited? aren't you scared?  I don't think I am, or am I too afraid or too proud to admit that I am... but I do have this feeling that something is coming.  Just gotta suck it up, buckle up and keep going.

Packing something this big is tough, because there's minimal room for error.  =.=

我静悄悄地来，也静悄悄地走了...

Till we meet again... =)

What is This?

Unsaid,

It is intention,

Is it bliss?

Something,

Something on the inside,

Taking the form of you

I sing Terrified,

From the first time I saw your face,

Piercing eyes through my soul;

Of the held out hand,

In the rain,

Shimmer...

As the days go by,

Little did I know,

Less what I could see;

Then you were gone.

As if it was written among the stars,

Your smile greeted me then,

Lady Luck shone on me,

Fate sang her wicked tune.

I know not it was no more,

Though this brilliance shall linger;

Mirror "that" sonnet, this is for

Forever...

Bearing name for a saint,

I wonder when,

when will I ever see you again.

My Cooking

I think its safe to say that I can cook, well the food have been edible but I'm not sure how it would taste for other people...
 

This was a breakfast from one of the home-alone days.  Its the usual microwave-rice-egg-cake but with seaweed-paper thingy as the mold.  The sauce i made to go with it was tomato sauce with a dab of light soya sauce.  Definitely had the orient-western fusion taste.


And this was what I would say a western dinner?  However it was ate as lunch, =P 
This is the chicken chop, sauteed carrots and bak-choi cooked with chinese rice wine, extremely aromatic when done with alcohol.

 These are the baked potatoes, super easy to prepare and the skin is just...XD.  I learned a huge lesson baking these potatoes...  You MUST ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS wrap them in aluminium foil, otherwise you'll be in for one hell of a scrubbing...  I would've wanted to plate them together, but my house don't have that kind of big plate.




 Next up are noodles.  I can't take much credit from it, it was modified from instant noodles.  

Threw some veges, prawns... shitake mushroom and 鱼漂。  It was originally a packet of 高丽面, and I must say, the noodles are most amazing.  The noodle strings are thicker than most others and they are so smooth...  I guess that's why they are more expensive.

This was the second time I made these, not-so-special-hotdog-onions-garlic-basil combination.  Somehow, anything that smells like tomato and basil will induce Italian flavour, but what do I know about Italian cuisine.  

Soup, this specific one has minced meat with a type of vegetable that I don't know how to name...  It looks like a cabbage but its much longer.  Just pour in a little bit of vinegar and you've got an appetizing starter.  

Lastly, this is fried rice in its most traditional form.  Rice, stir-fried with char siew and frozen mixed veges... brings back so much memories...




I don't mind cooking, as long I have the time, but I don't like the cleaning that comes afterwords.  I've actually said to myself quite often that if I suck at books, I'll venture into culinary.  XD

Well, if you still haven't noticed, I've changed me blog template again.  Blogger really outdone themselves this time, much much more variety. 

Following my previous post, well I'm kinda obsessing about it, losing sleep, thinking too much, going crazy, imagining things.  Not healthy I must say, but on the bright side, post frequency has gone up!

I have a dream leh...
*sigh~!*

Well, you know, cooking is a passion of mine, but not the big big kind.  See my dad made this sweet potato soup or was it yam...because it was not sweet at all.  =.=''  I decided to switch it up a little.

This, does it look revolting? I mashed it up and added milk.  I call it... 奶玉（芋）/ Milk_Jade .  haha!
I wasn't satisfied with it, there were still many small rough pieces that I did not like in my soup.  I thought about sieving it, but then that seems like to much trouble so i just blended the whole thing. I ended up with

I call it Milk_Jade version 2.0.  XD

smooth...creamy...sweet...

 Urgh... I so hate this feeling, its like u saw a bomb explode a couple of miles away and the wave is heading your way, that feeling.  Agony? Anticipation? Definitely got contents of emo.

I so hate right now, basically this post is to mark this moment where I just found out something and the fact is honing me as I'm waiting for the wave to hit. 

I want good news leh...

Fuck...

What A Week..

Well, life changing events took place Tuesday... I suppose the first time traveling alone counts as a life changing event.  The flight was terrible, most probably the worst one in my entire life! period.  Bad weather and all, should have picked an earlier flight. Traveling is tiring, mostly because I overpacked, as I always do...

Again, stayed in a hostel, this time its Paradiso Bed and Breakfast, dirtier than Bedz KL, but they provided breakfast, location wise is great, just awesome, but it was rather hard to find...  I forgot to bring my earplugs, I did see comments online reminding people to bring earplugs, just forgot...  making sleeping so tough.  I was roomed with a Taiwan dude, I feel sorry for the poor guy, staying in KL for a week, alone...honestly, I don't there's THAT much to see in KL.

Why did I go to KL?  NTU scholarship interview, but I was more focused on the shopping.  ZOMG, I am such a shopaholic...@@ in one day, less than 5 hours that Wednesday, I spent RM###++, I so damn scare myself sometimes.  The interview was rather weird, we talked about why I didn't choose ASEAN, what I did in my free time, recent happenings in East Malaysia, which I initially perceived as East Asia, my career aspirations and stuff.  I feel that I came off as a fool, a klutz, damn embarassing...  I am never satisfied with my interview performances. 

The interview was conducted at...  JW Marriott KL!!  OMG ah~ if you wanna know how classy is this hotel, there's a LV store next door!  Last time, the store next to my hostel was a freakin kedai runcit. There were freakin small hand towels rolled into cute little buns that you can use to clean your hands after you wash them.  I suggest the people who are in dire need of free handkerchiefs to use the toilet there. LOL!

After the interview, went to Midvalley.  Initially I was planning to go into Pavillion, but after I saw all the labels, decided otherwise.  SoI went to Midvalley, bought the ticket to Sentral at BB monorail, forgot to take the ticket when I went in!  Only realising it on-board the monorail, went off at Imbi then went back to BB, lol... silly me...  wasting time... 

When I finally reached Midvalley, stomach grumbling... went to Kim Gary, since I heard so many good things about it from my sis and bro.  Finding the place was really hard... but I did in the end...  Imagine, having the need to queue up to get in on a Wednesday night!  So sad lar... everywhere couples or family and I'm alone... but then apparently, it was easier to get a table that way...  While I was ordering, I saw someone I met during the interview earlier that day!  Haha, what a coincidence...  then we talked, about the interview, his other interviews, form 6 life and stuff, then we walked around the place a while.  Well, honestly, I didn't think the cheese-baked rice was THAT nice... maybe because I didn't pick the right meat to go with it.


Thursday, left early in the morning after breakfast.  KLIA, a decent looking place, but I am extremely irritated by all the walking needed to the terminals.  


So I left KL on a Thursday, but I reached Kuching on Saturday.  
Where did I disappear to? 

=P

Damn tired...

I am damn tired... blame it on the weather! I almost hurled...

Sickening... must be a noob driver, swing here swing there, like the long long travel period is not uncomfortable enuf.

I left home around 1pm, then I reach my temp. at 9! can u believe it? Unbelievable...

Today I voice out my appreciation to my mom.

Well, it IS mother's day... 

What did I do for mother's day?  Haha, just the thought of it makes me laugh.  

Hope she likes it.  Spontaneous planning was involved. 

If the world is not round,

If F does not equal MA,

If Chanel is not a brand,

If Malaysia is just, @@

Even if the moon crash-landed,

Even if you have white hairs,

Even if Maths and Science is taught in BM,

You would still be my mum.  

Mama, I luv ye, XD

So... I received all my offers from overseas, its so exciting that I got accepted overseas!  *sigh~* 

I tried crunching the numbers, but its just hopeless, man...  There are moments that I wished I never applied at all.  I can't afford all that, where the hell can I find rm400,000 !? 

I said before I've been hoping that April would be a busy month, but it turned out to be one of the slowest one yet.  Scholarship applications are getting cold and stale... T.T 

No news, no news, anywhere also no news...

Did you know offer letters have due dates?  As the due dates creep closer, what the heck am I gonna do?

If I'm going to UK, I could opt for the 3 year Actuarial Science course, but do I really want to do that?  I mean, I could do it no problem, but I want to deal with technology, I have these ideas that randomly pop up in my head and I want to invent those things.  Foolish me, I applied for the 4 year MEng course, which is great, if "someone" was rich enough. 

*sigh~*  

I just have to remind myself that I applied in the first place with the condition that I would only go if I got a scholarship to put me there.  Now the offers came in and I could really have a chance!  Its just that no one is interested to invest in me.  I guess I'm a terrible person who is not worth investing in?  Someone who only knows how to study?  Join 5 clubs also no use... >.>

I thought that by getting 4.0, I would have my chance, my turn, but I guess that is NOT the case for me.  

Maybe I should accept the Monash offer before it goes stale, like literally cos its been sitting on my desk for over a month now...

 

Last night, there was a dinner, less than 20 people showed up, well you can't say it was a success but its not much of a failure either.

A rather peculiar day this Sunday was...  not one of my proudest moments there.  Once again, am I really to blame? I don't think so...  but it did happen cuz of my decision that day.  I think I moved pass that.  I give it a "pass".

So we went to Bla Bla Bla, ordering was damn chaotic, imagine if 30 over people showed up, that would be so much WORSE... 

I think this chandelier must be famous in Kch already...

I don't really think it would be interesting to review the food there, not like its a new place and all... but all in all, in my taste, the signature dishes are great, others not so much.  Drinks are a little too expensive.  Plates are very big tho, portion wise wasn't so.

My phone camera is poor, hence the type of quality you see here, does very very poorly when the light is dim. 

It was a fun night, laughs... chatter...  sure hope there's gonna be more.  Maybe next month?  People keep complaining about how their wallets are thinning.  =P

Waiting

Well, its the beginning of April.  March ended in an untimely fashion, not to say I didn't have blogging material, I definitely had blogging material, but you can say that I wasn't in the mood.  Got distracted by the simple, blogging just seemed so much harder.   *laughs*

As 2010 enters his 2nd quarter,represented also is my holiday which has been well over 3 months now!  Wow, it just seems so unbelievable that it has been THAT long already.  You know, in this time, I realised how people just get on with their lives after the exam, playing the part they want to play, just comes naturally I guess?  That just makes me wonder what I achieved in this holiday, not much difference I made, can't think of anything that's down right significant right now... oh well, not like I reached the half-mark of my holiday, right guys?

So for me, March was a hell lot about applications.  I did what I could with it, just hope I delivered.  It was such a drag... even elaborating on it seems like such a drag... so I'm just gonna leave it at that.  Oh~, how would I love to go overseas. 

This month, I hope its a busy one, crossing my fingers that I would need to ride on a plane.  Desperate aren't I? Yeah, well I just recently found out that I didn't make it to some of the applications I made.  Just makes me feel like nothing has changed at all, even with 4.0, its still never going to be good enough, that I'm never gonna be good enough.  So, I am now waiting, for an opportunity, for a chance.

In the mean while, I deserve some fun!

(This post is kinda cheezy and bitter)

Hi guys!  It has been a long while.  I know I should update more often but, well, priorities change.  I'll just go straight to the point. 

This is what I looked like when I drove to school, not knowing my results on 25th February.  I kinda have this kind of habit of taking a picture of myself before something important.  I can still remember that while I was driving, the radio played Maroon 5 "Harder to Breathe" and Rihanna's "Russian Roulette".  I was like, what was the Cosmos trying to tell me?

To keep it short, I'm glad, overjoyed, but everything is kept in moderation.  (Except I hugged a guy)  I'd like to use this opportunity to thank my school teachers, for being so awesome (except that Chem teacher), and the tuition teachers for making class so lively and bearable.  Tuition helped, =) .  I'd like to thank my family for the moral support they had given me and all the crap I had to put up with...  Last but not least, I want to thank my friends, just for being there, hehe... 

It feels awesome to know that I did it right.  Congratulations are in order for the two ladies whom as expected, rose to the expectations.  Wee~, all my paper grade A; me, the number 3 seed of our year; me, who didn't get top scores for any subject; me, who beat the top seed in STPM, =P.  I remember someone saying, these are the people that JPA didn't want, look at how we turned out.  Eat that, impotent fools!  Form 6 treated us kinda well...   I guess my sequence holds on, it has been proven that three events can tell a sequence.  In primary 6, I didn't get it, in Form 3, I got it, then in Form 5 I didn't get it and now Form 6, I got it! 

I would also like to say " IN YOUR FACE!!!" to our beloved SMK Green Road.  I was pretty pissed that she got picked over me, she wasn't even in the top 3.  Payback's a bitch.  =P.  I no longer feel the same way about Green Road, mostly would just give em the cold stare..But still, I had a pretty great KL trip, it would have messed up my Genting big time.  I guess the Cosmos is at work here too? haha...

Me, I still remember I sang Jordin Spark's American Idol coronation song as I walked out the back door of school.

Now, I'm doing applications! It is SUCH A DRAG.... and its freakin expensive!!  Weighing my options, hoping for a scholarship that takes me far away~.   

Till then, we'll see you when we see you.  lol...

Post-CNY Post

What comes post-cny? Is it the overwhelming amount of leftovers?  The redundant weight you gained over the past few days?  Counting of your angpao money?  Well, in this case and for my fellow form-6 fellas' case, its a smack-in-the-head  STPM RESULTS!!!  I believe nothing is more important that those results right now?  

This year is the fastest one yet, that I have known... as if last year's papers were so easy to mark, like everyone got the same mark (fail), but a more sensible reason is that they got more markers this year, but based on their reputation, they are too much of a bunch of cheap-skates to hire more markers, aren't they?

Everyone is nervous, everyone worries because it lies in the unknown right now, a very important piece of information that very much determines your life.  Me, I am nervous as well, just can't help it!  My arms feel weak sometimes.  I can still remember the mistakes I made, the uncertainties in those foolscap papers.  Well, for what its worth, I did have time to finish the papers and checked it, which I could not do for school exam papers,  truly makes me wonder how did I do.  I don't think I can bear it once more, waves already crushed thrice, how much more can I take?  How much more do I have to take?  

I went to tuition for every subject,  really hope that they pay off.  Some of them really helped me, like those teachers alot too.   However, those can't help me now...

I am aware that I have to be mentally prepared, but i can't seem to grasp that understanding quite that clearly yet.  I'm not into most bull.  >.<

Yeah, of course I want a CGPA 4.0, I am not sure I got a CGPA 4.0, I could get a CGPA 4.0, with some luck...  I'm flattered school forecast a 4.0 for me, I dreamed I got B+,A-, and  two Ds , also dreamed that someone got a B+ for Chemistry~, but its highly unlikely.  My school record all this while has been 3A-, 1A.  Definitely hoping for better.  I have to make room for disappointment, it bit me HARD on my ass couple of years ago.  For the record, every year these few years, only one person got 4.0 for our school.  Last year only 1 person got A for Physics, 1 for Chemistry, 1 for Biology and only 3 for Mathematics. (That is very few for Math).  Those terrifying statistics.. just makes people kinteo.  There are two hopeful ladies that really deserve to get 4.0 from school, hope they get it.  What about me?  

I have already made plans, now it depends on the results to blow me in some direction.  Somehow, Leona Lewis's "Happy" comes to mind... but its not a happy song... @@

Oh dear...