Coming Up
It has been over 10 days since the new years. I've been living like a recluse, I guess you can say things have been peaceful. I know I have not been the brightest and loudest of them all, but I actually like to spend time with my family and actually expeience living in my home because those are the things I won't have when I leave for Singapore on Sunday.
I hope for the best, of the things coming up next week. I hope that my new housemates would be clean and cool, that I would be disiplined and driven enough to start strong. 12 weeks ain't long! I can expect heavy weeks ahead because there are alot of projects I will need to do! Even the thought of unpacking and settling into my room is tiring...
Well holidays are gonna end pretty soon. Some holiday plans definitely gone to bust. Planning for an overseas-other than Singapore summer was bust. Losing weight was bust because parents keep stuffing me with food! I actually gained a few kilos. Must hit the gym next week! I actually wanted to CAD out a robot for a t-shirt design this holiday. Couldn't get myself to sit down and sketch out the robot. I watched Real Steel and became inspired. By the way... I should write out some stuff real soon. Hand has gone stiff from all the lack of writing.
I am actually gonna be heading home again in 4 weeks time. I guess I can look forward to all the shopping for CNY I can do in Singapore. Decorations of Chinatown this time of the year is always amazing and the crowd! Packed like sardines I tell ya'! Half of them go because the stalls all pass out free samples of nice snacks! That's half of the reason I'm going too. There's a bunch of other stuff I want to picture too but I don't want to get ahead of myself!
Sad that I'm not gonna get a family dinner cos my brother will be busy with a friend's wedding. Mr Ho's for lunch would have been nice. Though I must say its nice to see him having a social life. I admit he's more likable than me, okay! He has a collection of soft toys, given by girls! Imagine that! If we had an american highschool hierachy, he would be in the popular crowd, and I would be... always halfway to anywhere I guess. I would have been popular too if I were fair! #lamexcuses Well ranting never solves anything, just good to get it out of the system.
ANYWAY. Feeling hungry. I think I'm going to get some food.
I had something smart I wanted to share, but I forgot. #irony #hashtagsareaddictive
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Friday, January 11, 2013
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
2013
As the fictatious door slams behind 2012. A window opens to welcome the streams of light that is a new year. I heard a wise-enlightening saying that says a new year means a new chance, hope to be better, to do better. 2012 to me was sweet and savoury, something that I am more than ready to put behind. There's really nothing I remember that I want to take with me. The things that I'm glad about are already on their way to the new year!
This time, I'm actually gonna set up some NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! Everytime the word comes up I keep thinking of the Nick Lachey song!
Its not a happy song, its a beautiful song that will forever rest in your mind. I do not by any chance mean that New Year Resolutions should be solemn and downing. In fact, it should be energetic and has impact! Like a particle vibrating at high temperature! *nerd alert*
Here goes,
First on the list addresses the latest and longest issue of results. I am going to aim for the dean's list. *nerd alert* I know it took a long while to decide this, been avoiding it for a long time with no apparent reason. I let procrastination get to me, poison me, but not anymore. I know what I need to do and the steps to achieve that. After this, I must deliver on the terms and conditions that I've had on my mind for over a year but not to say commit, I could not even get myself to face it! Shall publish terms and conditions very soon.
Second, I want to cut down some weight. I know this might be the most popular new year resolution of all time and it gets broken most of the time! My target is 70. More exercise and no gorging on food! I suspect my bone mass is super dense though. I'm not sure I can get to that target without losing muscle mass. I think at one time, i was 69kg? or was it 72? The end of Semester 1 of 2011, I was the lightest I've ever been in a long time in my life. Slim down man!
The third one I've been thinking about alot in my mind. My dad and friends keep asking me "why you don't have girlfriend!??". I'm not sure how to explain this part, my answers are always different, I haven't really talked to anyone about this, EVER. I think I'm ready for a relationship, but I don't want to end up hurting another person AGAIN. I wonder if you are reading this. I was young and foolish. I know where did I go wrong. We haven't talked for YEARS! Sometimes I still think about what could have been but that's not really healthy isn't it. Say you learn from your mistakes? This goal is "tentative".
These are the main things that I want to set as my 2013 new year resolutions! Even if I fail, I did my best to try. At least I made the effort. Do you know life flows pass you everytime you hessitate?
Do you like my new layout?
As the fictatious door slams behind 2012. A window opens to welcome the streams of light that is a new year. I heard a wise-enlightening saying that says a new year means a new chance, hope to be better, to do better. 2012 to me was sweet and savoury, something that I am more than ready to put behind. There's really nothing I remember that I want to take with me. The things that I'm glad about are already on their way to the new year!
This time, I'm actually gonna set up some NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! Everytime the word comes up I keep thinking of the Nick Lachey song!
Its not a happy song, its a beautiful song that will forever rest in your mind. I do not by any chance mean that New Year Resolutions should be solemn and downing. In fact, it should be energetic and has impact! Like a particle vibrating at high temperature! *nerd alert*
Here goes,
First on the list addresses the latest and longest issue of results. I am going to aim for the dean's list. *nerd alert* I know it took a long while to decide this, been avoiding it for a long time with no apparent reason. I let procrastination get to me, poison me, but not anymore. I know what I need to do and the steps to achieve that. After this, I must deliver on the terms and conditions that I've had on my mind for over a year but not to say commit, I could not even get myself to face it! Shall publish terms and conditions very soon.
Second, I want to cut down some weight. I know this might be the most popular new year resolution of all time and it gets broken most of the time! My target is 70. More exercise and no gorging on food! I suspect my bone mass is super dense though. I'm not sure I can get to that target without losing muscle mass. I think at one time, i was 69kg? or was it 72? The end of Semester 1 of 2011, I was the lightest I've ever been in a long time in my life. Slim down man!
The third one I've been thinking about alot in my mind. My dad and friends keep asking me "why you don't have girlfriend!??". I'm not sure how to explain this part, my answers are always different, I haven't really talked to anyone about this, EVER. I think I'm ready for a relationship, but I don't want to end up hurting another person AGAIN. I wonder if you are reading this. I was young and foolish. I know where did I go wrong. We haven't talked for YEARS! Sometimes I still think about what could have been but that's not really healthy isn't it. Say you learn from your mistakes? This goal is "tentative".
These are the main things that I want to set as my 2013 new year resolutions! Even if I fail, I did my best to try. At least I made the effort. Do you know life flows pass you everytime you hessitate?
Do you like my new layout?
Friday, December 28, 2012
Vicious and cruel cycle
I recieved my results yesterday. It was a joke. No, I was not talking about the results, but the promises and so called aspirations that I had early into the semester to do well this time because its about time! I keep telling myself, my parents gave me all this money to support my decision to study in this place. I, MYSELF wanted to challange myself to see how good I might do, to peak during Form 6 is sad. Form 6 was, and will forever be the brink, the cliff where people jump off to see if they can fly! To peak only then is terribly bad timing and satirical fate.This terrible feeling of failing myself is far worse than failing others. Its like I have a system fault in my brain that hasn't been taken cared of. I even have to take breaks in between writing this post because my brain somehow refuses to focus for more than a few minutes each time and IT IS DESTROYING ME.
I got a C in Human Resources and Organisation. That is terrible, no other way about that. From the lack of preparation to the lack of understanding of the topic to having insomnia before the final paper, seems more like a delicately weaved disaster than a module-learning process. I admit that the essays I wrote were really shit to begin with, but a C grade struck somewhere critically. Feels like a rupture. The CA was craptastic too?
I am extremely dissapointed for my B- grade in ME2142. I could not find fault in that paper except for the 9 marks that flew away. I can never understand the logics behind giving a grade but not showing someone where did he go wrong.
Though I have to say, the saving grace suprisingly came from ME3112. I knew the bell-curve would be steep but the A- gave me a slimmer of belief that I can do well at a core-module too. Except that come to think of it, the module had a lot of concepts that were similar to when I took physics. i.e. the force diagrams and the vectors and easy vibration questions because of the open-book policy.
In the end I screwed up in a seemingly easy paper and did well in a paper that I seemingly would do poorly in. This kind of shit keeps happening to me!
I realised that to get into Second Upper class I need to make it to the dean's list from here onwards EVERY SEMESTER! How am I gonna pull that off based on my current results? Do I want to do this? I don't want to turn out to be some failure engineer but the ability that determines an engineer isn't really good results! Am I right? I could be wrong! It is a fact, however that distinguished companies ONLY look for people with a degree Second Upper and above. Things seriously need to change from here on out.
A change will come, it has to come. I have to keep trying and really do the best that I can. Cut down on the procrastination, keep getting attracted to the same websites over and over again because it's already hardwired into my subconcious. It shall be amended!
More posts will keep coming. This might be able to help me sort some things out.
I am troubled. This is not over.
I recieved my results yesterday. It was a joke. No, I was not talking about the results, but the promises and so called aspirations that I had early into the semester to do well this time because its about time! I keep telling myself, my parents gave me all this money to support my decision to study in this place. I, MYSELF wanted to challange myself to see how good I might do, to peak during Form 6 is sad. Form 6 was, and will forever be the brink, the cliff where people jump off to see if they can fly! To peak only then is terribly bad timing and satirical fate.This terrible feeling of failing myself is far worse than failing others. Its like I have a system fault in my brain that hasn't been taken cared of. I even have to take breaks in between writing this post because my brain somehow refuses to focus for more than a few minutes each time and IT IS DESTROYING ME.
I got a C in Human Resources and Organisation. That is terrible, no other way about that. From the lack of preparation to the lack of understanding of the topic to having insomnia before the final paper, seems more like a delicately weaved disaster than a module-learning process. I admit that the essays I wrote were really shit to begin with, but a C grade struck somewhere critically. Feels like a rupture. The CA was craptastic too?
I am extremely dissapointed for my B- grade in ME2142. I could not find fault in that paper except for the 9 marks that flew away. I can never understand the logics behind giving a grade but not showing someone where did he go wrong.
Though I have to say, the saving grace suprisingly came from ME3112. I knew the bell-curve would be steep but the A- gave me a slimmer of belief that I can do well at a core-module too. Except that come to think of it, the module had a lot of concepts that were similar to when I took physics. i.e. the force diagrams and the vectors and easy vibration questions because of the open-book policy.
In the end I screwed up in a seemingly easy paper and did well in a paper that I seemingly would do poorly in. This kind of shit keeps happening to me!
I realised that to get into Second Upper class I need to make it to the dean's list from here onwards EVERY SEMESTER! How am I gonna pull that off based on my current results? Do I want to do this? I don't want to turn out to be some failure engineer but the ability that determines an engineer isn't really good results! Am I right? I could be wrong! It is a fact, however that distinguished companies ONLY look for people with a degree Second Upper and above. Things seriously need to change from here on out.
A change will come, it has to come. I have to keep trying and really do the best that I can. Cut down on the procrastination, keep getting attracted to the same websites over and over again because it's already hardwired into my subconcious. It shall be amended!
More posts will keep coming. This might be able to help me sort some things out.
I am troubled. This is not over.
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