Post-CNY Post

What comes post-cny? Is it the overwhelming amount of leftovers?  The redundant weight you gained over the past few days?  Counting of your angpao money?  Well, in this case and for my fellow form-6 fellas' case, its a smack-in-the-head  STPM RESULTS!!!  I believe nothing is more important that those results right now?  

This year is the fastest one yet, that I have known... as if last year's papers were so easy to mark, like everyone got the same mark (fail), but a more sensible reason is that they got more markers this year, but based on their reputation, they are too much of a bunch of cheap-skates to hire more markers, aren't they?

Everyone is nervous, everyone worries because it lies in the unknown right now, a very important piece of information that very much determines your life.  Me, I am nervous as well, just can't help it!  My arms feel weak sometimes.  I can still remember the mistakes I made, the uncertainties in those foolscap papers.  Well, for what its worth, I did have time to finish the papers and checked it, which I could not do for school exam papers,  truly makes me wonder how did I do.  I don't think I can bear it once more, waves already crushed thrice, how much more can I take?  How much more do I have to take?  

I went to tuition for every subject,  really hope that they pay off.  Some of them really helped me, like those teachers alot too.   However, those can't help me now...

I am aware that I have to be mentally prepared, but i can't seem to grasp that understanding quite that clearly yet.  I'm not into most bull.  >.<

Yeah, of course I want a CGPA 4.0, I am not sure I got a CGPA 4.0, I could get a CGPA 4.0, with some luck...  I'm flattered school forecast a 4.0 for me, I dreamed I got B+,A-, and  two Ds , also dreamed that someone got a B+ for Chemistry~, but its highly unlikely.  My school record all this while has been 3A-, 1A.  Definitely hoping for better.  I have to make room for disappointment, it bit me HARD on my ass couple of years ago.  For the record, every year these few years, only one person got 4.0 for our school.  Last year only 1 person got A for Physics, 1 for Chemistry, 1 for Biology and only 3 for Mathematics. (That is very few for Math).  Those terrifying statistics.. just makes people kinteo.  There are two hopeful ladies that really deserve to get 4.0 from school, hope they get it.  What about me?  

I have already made plans, now it depends on the results to blow me in some direction.  Somehow, Leona Lewis's "Happy" comes to mind... but its not a happy song... @@

Oh dear...